suicide

i'm not suicidal, not even close. hell, i'm not even depressed. in fact, today was one of the best days i've had in a long time. work went well, i'm reading an excellent book (dune), and i hung out with my good friend ryan. this probably belongs in a journal entry but seriously i had a great day. played some video games, watched a great movie, even enjoyed the sunshine.

so why write this? why not?

the real answer is i wanted to use the words "in for the kill" in something. the rest fell into place.

also tell me if you think this subject matter warrants a mature content warning. if so i'll get right on that.