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a little ways away
your glass eyes ignite like the spheres
still as dark as the sea where they fly
looking down into me and my fears
full and honest your heat they belie
you're the colors i'll never abide
still as dark as the covers i weave
you're the inside to match the outside
full of all i've been blessed to believe
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the greatest show on earth
unity creased like a page
the rage of man often increased
in that moment the lives in us cease
and released from our crimes we stand tall
there's a moment just after the fall
when all consciousness drains to the sea
where each drop of us begs for a wall
to rebuke as we take on the beast
mourn us not for the name we are called
but for all we left false and untried
for the guilt of a life lived enthralled
for the rivers we swallowed uncried
in my wisdom i knew not at all
how the sun would turn black o'er the stage
where hanging before you i sing
and folded i lie in my cage
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winter's an unending hole
clawing through time on its way
to the future fall already stole
and here i am stuck in today
i saw your eyes looking away
and knew you were already gone
it's a humorless game we all play
at the feet of omnipotent dawn
i flow down o'er a merciless weir
lower still than i thought i could be
yet unmoved as my neck is laid bare
and the stones are the last things i see
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pour out my wisdom and pain
until only your light can be seen
remove the fog i love and walk through
take time away from me
i hide my face
what now can i gain?
your devouring hand is yet gentle
my own lie in vain
put a heart back in me
where now only consequence lives
not for my glory or name
but for the depth of your word
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how quietly we see
a future not yet won
neither eager
nor deceived
an unlived life begun
hardened but free
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i want to be
able to die
but i can't
and the world
has ceased
and stopped
at a slant
but my eyes
will keep
to find a
way off
until then
i'll still cover
my mouth
when i
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i don't know why i waste my time by SS116 i don't know why i waste my time :iconss116:SS116 0 0
i'm in the ocean watching something move
perhaps alive; unconscious just the same
no more than wind can hope to be down here
the current takes my hand
i look away
it's quiet but deep voices travel far
the better to be heard by those who fear
a way is made to peace by whispers weird
i shouldn't trust my feet on deeper sands
than man has walked and lived to dream of it
light fades upon the coral and the stone
who spew their shade on bones their fathers carved
each grain of life surrounds uncommon flesh
still deeper things than this my hands have found
and touched the pitiless, but not by choice
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great again
roots torn up and tossed like winnowed grain
what's left survives against the screaming tide
still purity flows on through muddy vein
stumbling through the poison they abide
bereft of truth they know they are alone
the light calls out and for a time they hide
but man will come to know what man can own
his roots will dig in deep against the fall
when sisyphus begins to love the stone
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old breath
i've prepared myself to die
i've gathered all my coins
a veil of fog contains my cry
a dust has gathered in my loins
i've weakened in my elements
grown thin within my mind
naught remains my eye resents
but what my dreams designed
soon i'll find what knowing means
i'll settle where i lie
nothing heard and nothing seen
forgetting all but i
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believe me
my pride rests
in deserts
crossed by feet
dreading each shadow
i raise
my glowing face
above that sea
and stain the light
each moment casts
on me
throat laid open
silence spilling free
a little curse
the weight of which
will sink us
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flesh of my flesh
chained to a weight
of old feathers
caught by the pins
that hold your smile
in place
sublimely oppressed
effaced by the hands
you've been shaking
when a consequence
falls from the nest
then suddenly
collars are blessed
and my fever's
a storm-battered ship
afraid in the eye
of your grace
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this monster has a hold upon my wings
a time unfit for futures filled with song
unwhole, my body's caught up in the strings
i, fragrant, fall apart, my days yet long
flatter me, you black unfettered eyes
take hold of me until my breath is cold
scream at me your silent coughing lies
take part of me and test me while i'm old
the coward on my shoulder's growing bold
glutted on the fat of lesser kings
i pray this rusted hand release its hold
let sleep compel my eyes to stranger things
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gray sea
bear with me
cast your spell
as wrong as i am
all seems well
mountains away
as near as the sun
don't say
uncertain you've won
look back
through the fog
at the moment
you've gained
and smile
for the sinner
your glowing blood
for the trees
you believe in
the fields
and movement
the silence
and stillness
their yet
unknown yields
listen my dear
hear what i can't say
i'm moonlight and darkness
you're life, breath, and day
and there might be a way
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peace is creeping in
the endless combat
at long last
has ended
a stifled grin
your house half fallen
dice left uncast
a ship with no mast
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old beyond aging
alive beyond time
you hold me close
fierce in your embrace
i love you
more than my own self
and far more
than the sea
your conquering kiss
an untamed storm
your furious gaze
a song to me
in whispers
your violence the fall
that lifts me up
a day spent dying
thirsting for your breast
i am absorbed
by the smoke of your anger
you bind the unbending
in you their vigor pales
as do i
as i lie
deep in you
a lasting pain
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I own hundreds of fascinating books on all sorts of topics. Manga and Western comics, science-fiction, fantasy, Shakespeare, historical fiction, mysteries, a variety of classic literary works, atlases, non-fiction books about the crusades, historical figures, firearms, ethics, mythology, politics, conspiracy theories and pseudoscience, a complete Popular Mechanics Do-It-Yourself Encyclopedia, religious books including a wide variety of Bible translations, commentaries, and concordances, books on different branches of apologetics, Morals and Dogma, the Bhagavad Gita. I have modern college-level textbooks on biology, chemistry, public speaking, criminology, philosophy, and cultural anthropology.

But I'm going to spend my morning watching Kamen Rider and twirling my mustache. 

Because I'm an adult.

For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men who suppress the truth in unrighteousness, because that which is known about God is evident within them; for God made it evident to them. For since the creation of the world His invisible attributes, His eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly seen, being understood through what has been made, so that they are without excuse. For even though they knew God, they did not honor Him as God or give thanks, but they became futile in their speculations, and their foolish heart was darkened. Professing to be wise, they became fools, and exchanged the glory of the incorruptible God for an image in the form of corruptible man and of birds and four-footed animals and crawling creatures.

Therefore God gave them over in the lusts of their hearts to impurity, so that their bodies would be dishonored among them. For they exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed forever. Amen.

For this reason God gave them over to degrading passions; for their women exchanged the natural function for that which is unnatural, and in the same way also the men abandoned the natural function of the woman and burned in their desire toward one another, men with men committing indecent acts and receiving in their own persons the due penalty of their error.

And just as they did not see fit to acknowledge God any longer, God gave them over to a depraved mind, to do those things which are not proper, being filled with all unrighteousness, wickedness, greed, evil; full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, malice; they are gossips, slanderers, haters of God, insolent, arrogant, boastful, inventors of evil, disobedient to parents, without understanding, untrustworthy, unloving, unmerciful; and although they know the ordinance of God, that those who practice such things are worthy of death, they not only do the same, but also give hearty approval to those who practice them.

Romans 1:18-31 (NASB)

  1. 28% of homosexual men had more than 1000 partners:  "Bell and Weinberg reported evidence of widespread sexual compulsion among homosexual men. 83% of the homosexual men surveyed estimated they had had sex with 50 or more partners in their lifetime, 43% estimated they had sex with 500 or more partners; 28% with 1,000 or more partners. Bell and Weinberg p 308." (
  2. 79% of homosexual men say over half of sex partners are strangers: "The survey showed 79% of the respondents saying that over half of their sexual partners were strangers. Seventy percent said that over half of their sexual partners were people with whom they had sex only once. Bell and Weinberg pp.308-309."  (
  3. Modal range for homosexual sex partners 101-500: "In their study of the sexual profiles of 2,583 older homosexuals published in Journal of Sex Research, Paul Van de Ven et al. found that "the modal range for number of sexual partners ever [of homosexuals] was 101–500." In addition, 10.2 percent to 15.7 percent had between 501 and 1000 partners. A further 10.2 percent to 15.7 percent reported having had more than 1000 lifetime sexual partners. Paul Van de Ven et al., "A Comparative Demographic and Sexual Profile of Older Homosexually Active Men," Journal of Sex Research 34 (1997): 354."  (
  4. 1978 study, 78% of gay men had more than 100 partners, 28% more than 1000: "A far-ranging study of homosexual men published in 1978 revealed that 75 percent of self-identified, white, gay men admitted to having sex with more than 100 different males in their lifetime: 15 percent claimed 100-249 sex partners; 17 percent claimed 250-499; 15 percent claimed 500-999; and 28 percent claimed more than 1,000 lifetime male sex partners. By 1984, after the AIDS epidemic had taken hold, homosexual men were reportedly curtailing promiscuity, but not by much. Instead of more than 6 partners per month in 1982, the average non-monogamous respondent in San Francisco reported having about 4 partners per month in 1984." (
  5. There is an extremely low rate of sexual fidelity among homosexual men as compared to married heterosexuals.  Among married females 85% reported sexual fidelity. Among married men, 75.5% reported sexual fidelity. Among homosexual males in their current relationship, 4.5% reported sexual fidelity. (Sources:Laumann, The Social Organization of Sexuality, 216; McWhirter and Mattison, The Male Couple: How Relationships Develop (1984): 252-253; Wiederman, "Extramarital Sex," 170.  This is extracted from

    Educate yourself:
your glass eyes ignite like the spheres
still as dark as the sea where they fly
looking down into me and my fears
full and honest your heat they belie

you're the colors i'll never abide
still as dark as the covers i weave
you're the inside to match the outside
full of all i've been blessed to believe
i was surprised to notice recently that my previous journal entry has been viewed some 900 times. who is actually reading this garbage? knock it off!

i actually have a lot to talk about. my life has been interesting, and getting more so. 

i'm going to keep it to myself though. not out of mistrust, or contempt, or egotism. 

only because i don't care. this world is a graveyard full of ghosts. 
  • Listening to: onségen ensemble - kuuhanka
  • Reading: dangerous games - clayton emery
  • Watching: into the badlands
  • Eating: goldfish


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rossi1994bs Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2017
Happy birthday!
SS116 Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
Larathain Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2017
Happy birthday! May it be a day of perfect weather and joyful bliss! One you'll enjoy to often offer reminisce.
Loftydreams101 Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2016  Student Writer
Thank you so much for the favorite! 
Larathain Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2016
You are very welcome for the watch and the llama! If you see my art, and enjoy what you perceive, mayhaps you'll offer me the favor of returning the watch! ^-^


Though, I wonder why you felt the need to point out that we are different people. Were you trying to be rude on purpose?
SS116 Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
not at all. i just thought it was interesting that two very different people could have similar style. 
Larathain Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2017
How are we different?
SS116 Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
we have fundamentally different worldviews and you seem to be more emotionally expressive and open than i am. there are other differences of course, but those are the two main things i noticed
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hi want to be friends
SS116 Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
whatever for, darling?
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